As things get chaotic around me , so does my stream of consciousness…
I really wanted to talk about our little cabinet. You know the little cabinet which we have inside the far corner of our mind, which contains all our thoughts and feelings that we are too afraid to share with the vast opinionated world ?!
It’s really funny , no matter how much we expose ourselves to the world outside we still have a little ( big ) part of our emotions hiding deep inside us. No matter how much we try, we just aren’t able to mix it with our exposed selves. Our thoughts jam in with the worst case scenarios about how we might loose our current well paced life.
Also in the same way, no matter how much you think you know a person there is still a part of them that is hidden from the world. It’s like a permanent game of Hide and Seek, except that there is no seeking for anything, simply because it is too scary !
Then there are those lonely days where you get completely lost in yourself and make your way towards the little cabinet and open it slowly just in case someone might find out. But once it’s opened, there it is. Big and obvious. You feel overwhelmed and might even think about letting some of those emotion stride out in society. You question yourself, why is it so dangerous to let this part of yourself see the world? Why should this small little thought of yours destroy your life? Why should this part of you be clocked? Just why? Why? Why? Why ?
Then you hear a knock from the society and you know it’s time to lock the cabinet once again and go back to your supposedly real self. Once you start to lock the cabinet you know it’s not going to be too long before the cabinet is going to unlock itself once and for all. You tell yourself that the cabinet need not be opened but secretly you want to let your true self to see the world and experience life.
Oh, the emotions !
Seriously, is it just me or does anyone else have this little cabinet ?
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